Earlier this week, a friend of mine posted on Facebook: “Two weeks until graduation! … then what?”
By the time late-April rolls around, words like “antsy” and “CTFD” find their way into our vocabularies. Students are ready to graduate (or just to be done with school for a few months), but there are still two weeks before the glorious end of finals. And this restlessness isn’t limited to Buffs: as the weather ramps up, people start thinking about summer, and suddenly, sitting in offices during maximum sunshine hours seems not-so-awesome.
This fidgety anxiety quickly turns into a brutal feeling of uncertainty. We start second-guessing every decision we’ve made — from our choice of career to what we had for breakfast. We question whether we’re on the right path, whether it’s time to change our majors or break up with our girlfriends, whether we should even bother to put on pants today. (Or maybe that’s just me.)
We freak out, and a whole lot of people freaking out is less conducive to actually enjoying life and getting stuff done. Insecurity and restlessness feed off each other, and they can make this awesome, exciting time of year sort of awful.
As nerds, we turn to definite things in order to help us understand our world. We use our grades to tell us whether we’re on the right path, instead of whether we’re passionate or satisfied with our studies. But what happens when you’re a year out of school (like me,) and you don’t have grades, or anything equally as definite, to back up that springtime insecurity?
I’ve been talking with friends about this lately, and I’ve gotten a lot of good advice. From articles about “impostor syndrome” to Meyers-Briggs assessments (shoutout to my fellow ESFJs,) it’s pretty clear almost everyone feels this way at some point or another. And there’s some truth to “misery loves company,” for sure. But the best advice I’ve gotten so far, or at least the one that seems like a real challenge instead of a cliché, is to accept it.
Accept that sometimes, there are no definites. Accept that the next two weeks are going to be crazy and you’re just ready for them to be done, but that you don’t really know what happens next. As one friend said, “sit with” the uncertainty, at least for a little while, and then take some time to think about what you need to do next. Instead of getting restless with your insecurity, ride it out. You’ll never know what might be just around the corner.
Jess Ryan is a community manager and CU grad. She writes about nerdy things once a week for the Colorado Daily. On Twitter: @JessicaLRyan.